got to make my life a better one...first step...lose weight

last entry?

2006-01-16T18:03:00.000-08:00

About the blog
This blog, entitled “I Will Survive”, is written by Sandee, a mother of 3 children, who has been diagnosed with breast cancer since 1998. Part of her breast was surgically removed, and she started receiving chemotherapy, which was “worse than the cancer itself”. After three years of treatment, while thinking that she had beaten the cancer, she was told that the cancer had spread to her bones. Two weeks later, three 1cm lesions were found on her liver that have the appearance of cancer mets, which were impossible to remove. Once again, she had to return to chemotherapy. Early September 2004, the cancer took a turn for the worse. More bone mets in the lumbar area were found. Also, a new lesion in her liver and three new lesions in her lungs were growing quite rapidly. Once again, chemo was ordered.

When Sandee first knew the horrifying news, she was devastated and cried all day. She was extremely worried that her three young children would soon lose their mummy. Luckily, after gradually meeting more unfortunate yet tough people, she was influenced and become more positive. In each of her entries, she is thankful for something or someone.

The blog has regular entries by Sandee, and is her place to escape from the ruthless reality. By writing her feelings and what she is thankful about in her blog, it keeps her mind off her cancer. The blog also allow her to meet people with similar situations or have gone through similar experiences. This provides mutual support and sharing of experience, which is essential to patients undergoing such a prolonged battle. Hence, the encouragement from her friends through the blog has been “a major key to her survival”. Sandee intends to write about life and survival, so as to encourage others to appreciate their lives more. She is now very involved with breast cancer research, also intending to raise awareness and funds for as long as she can. She emphasizes the importance of early detection, hoping to educate women to have regular BSE (breast self exams).

Reasons why I like this blog
I found this blog very inspiring and encouraging, and have learnt to think positively. Sandee, the blog writer, was at first devastated by the bad news that she had cancer. Yet she was tough and strong enough to get over her emotion, and started to think in a more optimistic way. By doing so, she eased the worried of people who cared about her, and also influenced them positively. Also, even at times of hardship, she always put her children in top priority, and always considered her children’s benefit. She attended her children’s school activities despite her frail and weak condition, trying to show her love towards her children. Besides, she was tough and determined that even her sickness did not hinder her active participation in volunteer work, so as to spread her care to the needy. She also helped in breast cancer research and education, hoping to benefit other people. Her consideration for others is admirable.

Her determination and toughness is also worth appreciating. Chemotherapy had tremendous detrimental impact on her body. Her nails fell off; she had chemo-induced diabetes, meaning that frequent insulin injection is needed; she had to undergo extra surgery to fix her blocked tear ducts due to chemotherapy; her nose and throat were also thinning and thus bleeding due to chemo… However, despite all the horrible and torturing side effects she had to go through, Sandee still had a very positive attitude towards life. She never complained or gives up, but instead, she was thankful to many simple things around her. The most impressive thing was that, she was “Still bald & very bloated from decadron but smiling cause there are wonderful people & things in my life that keep me happy!” Her incredible determination is a major reason why I liked reading her blog.

What I have learnt
After reading Sandee’s blog, I have learnt several things. First of all, I have realized the importance of showing care to people around you. Diseases, including cancer, are prevalent in our world today. It is not uncommon to have friends and family members to be diagnosed with fatal diseases, and we might be losing them in anytime. By then, it would be too late to regret and mourn over how little love and care we showed to people around us. We should treasure people around us by simply showing your appreciation, or perhaps as simple as throwing a big smile and genuine greetings.

Also, we need to treasure our health. Although causes of cancer are broad and somewhat gene-linked, we should do pay more attention to our health and develop good life styles. It is a pity that while people like Sandee struggle in the battle against disease, many others do things that harm themselves and bring them closer to disease or even death. Every day, there are numerous reports on self-suicide. Also, bad habits such as smoking, drug abuse and alcohol abuse are also common in our society today. Despite education and warnings of the detrimental effects of these habits, people still take the risk and get along with the health-damaging acts. Clearly, these people do not realize the extent of damage they are doing to their bodies, and are not treasuring their health. City-dwellers today also forgo their health for work and money. When their body is functioning well, people would not realize that health is a valuable asset. Hence health is often neglected, and no action is taken to enhance health until problem emerges. For instance, during SARS incidence in Hong Kong, people paid more attention to improve hygiene, like washing hands frequently and covering their mouth and nose when sneezing. However, after the pandemic, people gradually forgot and neglected their good preventive habits, and personal hygiene generally decreased. In conclusion, we should always pay attention to our health, and treasure what we have. We could all enjoy our lives more by learning to be thankful and not to take things as granted.

Ref: http://www.day-without-rain.org/sandee/

the first major project!!

2006-01-16T01:24:00.000-08:00

finally here comes the day!!!

with only one hour sleep.......i took my exhausted body to the auritorium....
spent the whole day yesterday in maggies place to prepare the presentation

what i have done was so little and what they have done were so much!!
too bad that im not good at flash stuffs......

and i didnt go home until 5am this morning........
when it was raining like cats and dogs........

i have to go home by train then bus from her place
and.......
i waited for like 15 mins in the train station hoping that the rain will get less strong

but hope is only a hope.......
the rain became stronger and stronger........

i chose run to go to bus stop and that made me all soaked.........
like a just finished washing shirt from a washing machine

it was 06:45 when i arrived home.......
and the presentation..........was soso.......

hope its not too bad and girls.......
i really appreciate ur work~~!!

good news

2006-01-12T01:40:00.000-08:00

got a good news from my mates.......

mike minehan will give us one more week to finish the essay.....
thank heavens.........

i will be dead if he dont give us another week
seriously it will be too rush and im sure i will give him 2500 words with so few ref.

from russel....hes expecting some kind of verbal diarrhoea from us if he wants us to hand it in this thur

afterall......mike minehan is still the mr nice guy in my eye.......
he always follows students requests...........

actually we should have stolen so much time to use from his class
coz u know we always have early marks in his class.......

but then......we didnt use the time fruitfully so it comes to this situation
anyway.....we have got what we want and guys........

i think we really have to prepare for his essay
coz we can delay it no more~~

overnight prep......

2006-01-09T01:32:00.000-08:00

gonna have a presentation on ros class tmr and our progress is just too slow
because andras group had made an excellent presentation so......

ros is expecting us all to make it like in a theatre.......
then we have to write script after finish doing research

it seriously make our heavy burden heavier..........
and dont forget that its monday and we have just finsihed class....!!

doing the preparation for two days time we realized that we dont really have enough time to finish it

so.......at the time of the library closing......i made a decision.....
i have to go home and have a shower then i will head to maggies place to continue our work

well......its not that first time to work overnight but still
it scares me abit.....

it was like 11pm when i arrive home and i have to catch the bus at 23:33
it was really a rush but then i have made it

after the entire night of struggling......
we have finished the scripts and handouts........

but we are dying~~

anniversary

2006-01-07T02:02:00.000-08:00

i dunno is it a must to be in terms of year........
but its been 38 months since i and my gf become a couple~~

frds of mine would know that my gf is my everything....
to be honest she is even more important than my parents~~haha

i guess because my parents will never dump me but i will have to do something to keep my gf with me~?

i dunno.......
we have been experiencing alot together for so many months and ofcoz we argued......
sometimes....

not often~~

i guess thats not an easy thing to keep a relatioship that long plus its more difficult to keep an oversea relationship isnt it?

people always say......to keep a relationship the best way is to trust ur partner
well i dun have that kind of theories and i know nothing about how to keep it

what i do is.....let it be...
i dun mean i dun care what she does and how she acts.......
but i mean i will just treat her as my gf......that simple....

like talk to her everyday using msn....
exchange our cares and concerns........

i know it sounds a bit stupid to talk everynight but so what??
we enjoy that.....well should say i enjoy that.......

im a big talker.....i dun mean i like telling others secrets but i mean
i really like to talk so much.......i guess all of u know that~~

so i have never faced the situation that i found nothing to talk to my gf......
the way we keep our relationship is.......to treat each other as...."someone"
someone important......
i guess thats the key?

shes now 19 and we have been together for almost 4 yrs........so......
she was 15 at that time.......haha
happy 3.83 years anniversary michael

happy new year

2006-01-01T01:45:00.000-08:00

went watch firework with my gf last night.....it was great!!

but then this is the last day of her visit so....we have to do osme pack up today
weather is hot like hell......

we do the pack up with lots of sweats and....for me......
a person who doesnt really hate hot weather finds its too hot today
(its weird right?how can a fat boy like me not hate hot weather....but its true)

under such a bad weather we went to paddys market.......townhall and kensington
coz she has to buy some souvenirs back to hk.....

and i get changed for 3 times in the whole day coz i really have sweat a lot...
but who cares.......its always a nice time to be with someone u like isnt it?

finally she has to leave.......i went airport with her with some kind of sadness?
i dunno.....

i just dun want her to leave and that is quite reasonable right?
she didnt walk into the gate until the very last min and.......

this is a fullstop of our holiday.........
after her leave........

i dunno when i can see her again
and i have to face the torturing reality again

tonnes of works are coming to me........
deadlines are approaching.........
so.......

happiness costs.....~its true!

brisbane~~!!!!!

2005-12-27T04:45:00.000-08:00

i dun mean i went to brisbane......

but my gf did.........

a day is like a week long when shes not here suddenly......

but she will be back two days later haha!!

the eating day

2005-12-26T04:46:00.000-08:00

Since Stephen went to visit who he called “barbara”, who was actually called “beverly”, he left his daughter to me, hahahh. I took them to pancake on the rocks early in the morning, to have what I regard as the best breakfast. i told them i would bring them there yesterday but then they still went eat breakfast before i come.......
Stephen wanted to watch the yatch event, but then we didnt know the time and place, so we couldnt see the event, which was actually good coz i and my gf didnt want to watch that at all.... my girlfriend and I went to watch King kong coz Stephen went to visit his godpa. It was really scary and horrible—how could they make animals look so hideous?? and how could people say that king kong is lovely?

Then we went all the way to leichardt, and spent a lot on the dinner, like 80 dollars for two ppl? i dunno.... which was expensive but scrumptious.
I never realized that a day could pass so quickly.

and so costy.......

the entrance

2005-12-25T04:59:00.000-08:00

We met at 8:15 am at their hotel—even earlier than school days! After 2 hours train ride , and then another hour of bus, we finally arrived the Entrance at the far north, a place where Stephen claimed to be the most beautiful place in Sydney. To me, it was a mere sea coast. It was undoubtedly scenic, but then, not worth the time and moneyThe train and bus ride cost us god damn $22 , Stephen even wanted to hire a taxi to get there! He was out of his mind, as usual. we then visited stephen’s Hong Kong frds who he had not met for 20 years. could he call them frds? From 5:00 to 10:00pm, there wasn’t a single moment that I enjoyed. They were talking about studies and health, and kept on persuading me to lose weight by cutting off my sugar, fat and carb intake. Not eating carbs? Then what should I eat? Then they told me to learn English, but then their English wasn’t good neither.
the whole visit was sooooooooooo bad!!

Anyway, merry xmas!

bondi

2005-12-24T05:07:00.000-08:00

We went to fishmarket to have sashimi and other seafood, yet Stephen chose to have cooked fish fillet instead of sashimi. Thats stupid isn't it? Then we went to bondi beach. It was a really hot day in the morning, but then when we arrived at around 3:00, it became cool, and not as sunny. I wanted to stay longer since it was such a precious chance. but they said it was too cold, and disappointingly we had to leave after 30 mins. I never liked going to beaches, plus I cant swim, but then I was really looking forward to sun bathing and playing in the water. Yet just because he felt cold, its him again!!! we stayed for a mere 30 mins in bondi, on the other hand it took us an hour to get there. so....

it was lovely~~

2nd visit of manly

2005-12-23T05:05:00.000-08:00

We went to Manly again! This time, we visited Stephen’s business partner, a guy named Mark. Stephen said when he first met Mark 10 years ago, he was as handsome as Beckham, yet it turned out that he was more like George Clooney. He wasn’t really handsome nor cool, perhaps just tall-- but apparently didn’t have good dressing sense. He drove us from Central to his company’s office near Manly. The ride was quite boring as the 2 adults incessantly talked about business matter. We then had lunch after having a brief visit to his office. Stephen insisted on having Chinese food, but, come on, why would someone ever want to have Chinese food when he’s in Sydney? Haven’t he had enough in Hong Kong? Then he thought we had enough, and cancelled 2 main dishes, which made the meal quite scanty. Then Stephen had a swim at Manly, which was his 2nd time in 2 consecutive days. We then took a ferry to city and had dinner at an expensive yet not tasty Japanese restaurant. Whatever, Stephen paid~haha

the manly visit

2005-12-22T05:06:00.000-08:00

We went to Manly beach with my girlfriend and her dad to visit his 90-year-old godfather, who subsidized his school fee. Manly was such a nice place. My girlfriend’s dad, Stephen, told us that his godfather has a daughter called Beverly, but he nastily refers her as “fat lady”. Yet when I first met her, I started to realize why he made up such a nickname for her—she was a typical Australian plump woman who weighed around 200 lbs. Then we met Beverly’s husband, Ian, although somehow Stephen calls him as “In”. They were really nice and friendly, and showed us around. It was considerate of them to deliberately speak slower so that we wouldn’t find it too difficult to listen to their words. After strolling around for a while, it was around 5:00 already, so they drove us to their house for dinner. Their house was really beautiful, and the living standard was very high. They had a backyard which was as big as my house. They also had a “sausage dog” called Jack, which smells quite unpleasant, unlike my little dog. Their family started preparing dinner, and Bev’s daughter, Christine, also came over. Bev is 60 years old, and her daughter is 35, but she looks younger than her actual age. I guess she was once a charming lady. Christine has 2 daughters, aged 2 and 7. They were as cute and lovely as dolls! I was left alone when the grown-ups and my girlfriend were chatting, so I played with the 2 little girls. Maybe under the good influence of their parents, all 3 generations were really nice and friendly. While me and the 7-year-old were arranging pebbles around the bird bath, the 3 year-old tripped over and fell on the ground. Yet unlike other little girls of her age, she didn’t utter a sound or even cry. She didn’t cry all the way, until her hand started having signs of inflammation. Her mum, Christine, said that she rarely cries—what a tough girl!
On the other hand, Ian is a really typical Aussie. When he was cooking sausages, he suddenly showed me his watch and asked “what’s the time now?” then we answered him “it’s six.” He said “no, it’s time for another beer!” this turned out to be a funny joke even under such relaxing atmosphere We had a simple yet satisfying dinner of sausage, salad and bread. I really enjoy meeting foreigners since they are really nice.
Before we went to their house, we went to visit Stephen’s godfather, who was 90 years old and had a confused mind. He had severe hearing problem, so he had to wear a hearing aid. He couldn’t walk properly, so he needed someone to push him around in a wheelchair. His physical and mental condition was the reason why he had to live in a retirement village. There was a sleep-walker in the village, since he has colour blindness and poor vision, yet he walks everywhere, from one end to another every day. There was another old woman who screams for help for no reason, so Ian called her “peacock”. So it might be an advantage that godfather couldn’t hear well. Before leaving the retirement village, we had to help godfather return to his bed. But perhaps he was too nervous, he egested in his pants. Not meaning that was disgusting, but then I could fully understand how helpless it is when we become old and frail. It was nice to meet Ian, Bev and their family. I guess I will be visiting them soon.

my gf has arrived la

2005-12-21T05:04:00.000-08:00

this day finally comes....

to be continued

happy birthday army~

2005-12-16T17:43:00.000-08:00

went to armys birthday party.......
there were reggie, anita, cecilia, dyan, anitas bf, armys bf brian,
her bfs parents, and, her bfs dads frd....a pilot.....

oh ya....there are andra juyeon and kay~~
food there was really so great....i once again eat too much and feel like im about to explode.....im just too full......

didnt have much drink, so dun worry, it wont happen again dudes...haha~~
but that pilot frd was so drunk he didnt even eat the cakes....yes cakes....
there were two cakes.....

just like me last time....so drunk that i didnt eat cake....but.....hes way better
coz he didnt vomit at all......not even a bit........

everyone dressed in white....too bad that i didnt take much photo.....
but......i took one with army alone...just wanna show my gf.........

i have to say armys bfs dad doesnt look like a dad......
smoke talking with his own son.....like a frd......and look at his hair
its so long that even longer than my gfs......i guess he is an artist........

but i didnt dare to ask brian .....well its too rude i guess
i mean if hes not an artist........then what can i say~?

"ur hair is so long, that y i made such a guess....."
i dun think its a good idea huh....

anyway...thx army for bringing us to such a good restaurant.........
and i really have to say sorry to her........
for not buying any bday present to u.....
you know........you already have everything......really dunno what to buy
so........i'd better bring u a cake and i did so........
hope u liked it......
carol chose it......haha~~~
it was tasty but everyone was just too full....(as they said)
so.....we couldnt finish it all.......

then we had a walk........from the rocks to townhall......
it was not long but the funny thing is.......

lots of guys gave a glance or even starred at army.......
probably coz shes too..........................attractive i guess

once again

happy bday.....~~

......hell week......

2005-12-11T18:05:00.000-08:00

a lot to do in this week~~

due date of essay and podcast on tue.......
my frd.....whos a stweard is coming to visit me on mon

which i had planned to devote the whole day to the essay....
ok......its pretty embarassing.......

how can i dump my frd aside if he comes a long way from hk??
but.......how can i not finish the esaay by monday night??

dilemma~~

then.....gotta find a new place to move to.....
coz the place im livinh now is really too bad
there are always cockroaches marching around

come on......i dun need anyone to patrol around my place.......
i need no one to protect me........even if i need some......
its not u mr cockroach!!!

then we have to present our journals to julia on fri
and i have to prepare it..
i hate making up the journals........and im not good at it
if not i wont get the bad result in last sem......

and then my gf is coming to visit me next week
(planned to type my gfs coming......but it sounds like i have a few gfs...HAHA)
gotta do some preparation.......

oh my god....
should have started doing all the things weeks ago

ai~~
better keep my head down and work now!!!!

........leave me alone?~?........great~~

2005-12-09T20:48:00.000-08:00

they are leaving sydney for holiday after today~~
going back to hk.........i should envy them......

as i alwyas hope to go back to hk......
but.......there are always exceptions.......

i dun feel like going back to hk now.......haha
guess why..........

coz my gfs coming to visit me.....though his dads coming as well
oh whatever........haha

its always good to see her in foreign country......its like
we are having a trip .......

its always sweet to have a trip with my gf......
but this is just the first time.....haha

lets go back to the topic.....my hk mates are going back to hk
and.....things will be left behind......for me

so....im gonng work alone in the next week.......
dont think that i will be lonely without them....

actually i find it quite enjoyable~~
haha
SEE~~~~u 3 go to hell.....
just kidding.......

but anyway THX for leaveing me some works to do........
i mean it
i need something to content my life......and
u have been doing too much........coz u know i cant do designing stuffs........

and its time for me to compensate.......to make up......
anyway

have a good time in hk~~~

stop smoking~~

2005-12-05T02:15:00.000-08:00

used to hate smokers as they pollute air.....which we all need it very much

it stinks......it kills......harms smokers........also harm non-smokers
but then i started smoking a month ago.....for some reasons.......

therefore i stink.....i kill cells in my body.......
it does harm to me and also.......does harm to my frds.....frds around me~~

why do i have to do this......worth taking my life away?
worth damaging others health?
i doubt that............

decision made.........i will quit smoking.......from now on
though i have only been smoking for nearly a month

you wont see me smoking anymore..........
dun wanna c myself doing stupid thing like this
anyway.........its over~~

xmas is coming........days in insearch are leaving

2005-12-04T20:20:00.000-08:00

wanted to finish insearch as soon as possible
as it means i can go back home soon

last xmas.....i was so sad..........frds all left sydney..........
as they were on summer holiday and were all gone back to hk
left me here alone............
and my gf........deadly busy doing revision for the exams............

when people were celebrating outside..........i stayed at home and was doing nothing
surf on the net but the god damn network was just so slow............
feelings got amplified when there is contrast...................

i was even more sad..........
its now again december now.........
can only think of xmas when i think of december...............
here i am....waiting for the second xmas in sydney
i dont feel bad now as my gf is coming to visit me........................

on the other hand im a bit.............lost
dunno why im a bit afraid of finishing the day in insearch
it once was my dream..........

its true that time builds relations...........
i used to dislike insearch and ignore xmas

and im now looking forward to seeing my gf in xmas
longing for it and...........

i wanna stay in insearch for a bit longer.................

my landlord.......

2005-11-28T01:18:00.000-08:00

the landlord's wife came knock my door this evening......
she asked me not to pay the rent directly to the landlord
becoz he's heavily addicted to gambling...........
she afraid that he will tkae our money to go gamble again
and told me that the landlord was mad.........
he asked her not to tell us...............
orelse he will chop her into pieces..............

oh........i thought it only happens in movie.........
guess i was watching saw 2..........

ha.........didn't find that horrible but.....a bit funny...
dont u think so!?

diary in the past

2005-11-26T01:16:00.000-08:00

see that from my online diary.........
wrote that when i first came to aus

oh shit........jackson's computer was down....was that my fault??
i dunno........what i know is that i have to spend a lot again!!
and the weather today is very bad.....seems gonna rain.........
but it didnt......just heard afew sounds of thunder..............
and thunder here in aus is very loud...........
help........it makes me feel even more lonely.........
thunder and the problem of his computer come together in one day
what a bad day!?

p.s this is the first time for me to celebrate my sister's birthday.......
with such a long distance

bad eng haha~!

fuck the fucking fucker!!

2005-11-24T03:36:00.000-08:00

Perhaps one of the most interesting words in the English language today, is the word Fuck. Of all the English words beginning with F, fuck is the only one referred to as the “F-word”. It’s the one magical word. Just by its sound it can describe pain, pleasure, hate and love. Fuck, as most of the other words in English, has arrived from Germany. Fuck comes from German’s Frichen, which means to strike. In English, fuck flows into many grammatical categories. As a transmittal verb for instance, “Maggie fucked Sara”. As an intransitive verb; “Selina fucks”. Its meaning is not always related to sex, it can be used as an adjective such as: i am doing all the fucking work.” As a part of an adverb: “Dolly talks too fucking much”, as an adverb enhancing an adjective, Maggie is so fucking beautiful. As a noun, I don’t give a fuck”. As part of a word, abso-fucking-lutely or in-fucking-credible. Or as almost every word in a sentence:fuck the fucking fucker. As you must realize, there aren’t many words with the versatility such as the word fuck, as in these examples used as the following words:

Being cheated: I got fucked
Facing trouble: I guess I am fucked up now
Dismayed: oh fuck it!
Being aggressive: don’t fuck with me man!
Difficulty: I don’t understand what the fuck is it!
For Inquiry: who the fuck was that?
Dissatisfaction: I don’t like what the fuck is going on here”
Incompetence: he’s just a fuck-off.
Dismissing someone: why don’t you go away and fuck yourself?

I am sure you can think of many more examples.
With all these multipurpose applications, how can someone be offended when you use this word?
Use this unique, flexible word more often in your daily speech. It will definitely identify the quality of your character immediately. Say it loudly and proudly: Fuck you!

enrolment day of insearch

2005-11-21T01:21:00.000-08:00

i and my frd talked about the enrolment day of insearch
we agreed that its a waste of time.....
have to go there.........just to give them our address~
what the hell~?
and then they took student photo........~
so what's the point for giving them 3 photos before!?
the greatest thing is that u can make frds there........~
that's already very contented for me.........
as i did nothing meaningful for the past ten days.........
and got the timetable too...........
got a day off ........so only work for 4 days a week

after the talk.......
one horrible thing happened.....in my room.......
there were 5 bugs flying in my room....~
scared me for nearly 2 hours................fortunately.......
jackson came back and kill them......though he's scared too
oh my god........how could they get into my room?
ai.......aliens........help......
aus is entering summer.....many bugs r gonna be active......
shit........i hate bugs!!!

Chinese in Olympic~~

2005-11-18T10:43:00.000-08:00

We Chinese always blame this or that for not winning sports events.
Brazilians, having a less built body but still have among the best soccer players in the world. There is no reason to blame for. Chinese are just too selfish.
Chinese can ever win anything which require teamwork, such as basketball or soccer.
We're only limited to winning the games which require individual efforts as chinese can be among one of the best... without teamwork, we can never reach higher.
Is that why the whole nation is so excited because our volleyball team won?
Is it a breakthrough in our "traditional character"?

the golden day~!good on ya socceroos~!!

2005-11-16T19:15:00.000-08:00

class finishes at 1300 today....................

planned to watch the worldcup qualifier in a pub on kensington tonight.....................

everything just went as usual......like always........

until i step out of haymarket~~~
OH MY GOD!!
the whole street is filled with yellow..........
or should say golden coz its the color of the home team.........
people are singing and hurraying............
like they have already won the match..................

thought that i was dreaming coz......could never believe whats happening could be true......
the whole city is cheering for the socceroos..........
plus........devaluing the rival uruguay.............
saying that ur gay.........thats pretty rude~
but i dun mind coz im not from uruguay.........moreover
i joined the singing gang~~~~recoba recoba.......ur wanker!!
haha~~

time suddenly came to 8pm and the long whistle went on!
the match started!!
the socceroos played like dumb until the 30 mins...........
the beloved of australians........harry kewell came on to the pitch~
3 mins later.........................

the whole country started singing as bresciano scored and the game came tied!!!!!!!!
its hard to make u believe that harry has just recovered from injury for not more than 2 weeks
his performance was just too good...........doing all the thing that he could do like
crossing.......dribbling........making superb pass........his appearence triggered the good performance of the whole team
defending line of uruguay is tired of marking him............he really created so much pressure to them

but the game wasnt that attractive until OT has finished..........
it came to the penalty shootout..........
harry finished the fisrt kick with applause.........
and then the other hero of tonight............MARK SCHWARZER!!
made two brilliant save on the line!!!

they kicked uruguay home!!!
and the destiny of 2006 comes true finally!!
the aussies kept singing and singing............the whole stadium was in madness~!!
gonna see aussie playing in worldcup after 1974 again!!!
watch out germany............the socceroos are coming!!

keep it up~~

2005-11-15T13:53:00.000-08:00

in not more than one year time.......i have turned myself from a latecomer to an earlycomer......
as usual.........im the earliest one to arrive the classroom.......
interestingly........its donna class.........i can still remember that..............
a few months ago...........donna said that to the whole class............
"oh michael is late.....hes generally late........."
i have never heard of thie kind of grammar before...........generally late............
and ofcoz i know its not something good to hear.........

well.........anyway its been changed...........
so plz........
tell donna im no more a latecomer
but the one whos always the first one to sit here.........

australia was defeated.......

2005-11-13T02:43:00.000-08:00

early in the morning.......7am australia time......the world cup 2006 qualifier .......
the match australia vs uruguay started after the long whistle .........
uruguay scored by a dive header after 35 minutes.........
and that was the only goal in the whole match...

disappointing......i dont mean the result is disappointing......but the performance of the australian
if u didnt watch the match.........u can go see the highlight of the match..........
and im sure u will be disappointed too....

there are only two attacks from australia thats included in the highlights......
u know why?
coz the uruguay players have much better skill.........and........
uruguay had home game advantage.........so thats reasonable for them to play well......
and this wed.......the qualifier second leg will be on in australia.........
australia football team will have no excuse to lose.......
come on.......go kick uruguay home and go to germany........australia~~
4 year ago........you were defeated by uruguay so u couldnt go participate the worldcup 2002
go take revenge!!
there are hopes!!!

im addicted.......

2005-11-11T02:27:00.000-08:00

recently....get addicted to watching vcd.........
not watching drama or movies or what........but cartoon........

guess not much of you have ever heard of it...slamdunk.....

its about basketball......about boys.....boys like sports game coz they like the feeling of victory
and also.......the feeling of working together......to fight for a common goal with ur mates.....

slamdunk is really encouraging........i always have a good mood after watching slamdunk
i wanna work harder......wanna go jogging........wanna learn something new......
wanna get my eng improved........wanna work on something that im really weak.......
yes!!ur right...........im that simple......a cartoon can light up my mood.......
but.......in the reality.........thats another story..............
to go jogging.......there are annoying flies.......i cant stand them flying aorund me~~
so i cant do it......
to learn something new.....its quite difficult......coz u cant pay much effort on something which ur not good at......
if thats something new........thats probably not something that im good at....so.......no thx
to get my eng improved.........it takes time......and its difficult to see the progress as we all know that.....language is a life long learning stuff........to pay so much time on something that i dunno if i have improved or not........i dont like it!!
to work harder................im so sorry......i need time for watching slamdunk..........
the conclusion is......im still what im.........
the lazy me...........
btw..........where is my lunch~~?im so hungry~~~~

gotta get my driver license~~~~~~~...........later.....

2005-11-08T14:19:00.000-08:00

said that i have to get my driver license like three months ago............13-14weeks ago
the plan was then delayed to 10 weeks ago.......after the exam in last sem
the friday after the exam........i was prepared to go take the driver license after revising the test
because of the suddenly started rain.......i returned home right after i stepped out the front door
it was not a heavy rain actually...........
then the plan was delayed for one day........the day after that friday
it was a saturday..........A SATURDAY

"we dont provide test on saturday........"the staff told me that........but..........
i couldnt find any clues out from the RTA website.........if you dont provide tests on staurday
then why the hell do you open~?
fine........anyway i have finished doing revision...........

and im going back to hk soon..........on the next day...........sunday

then time comes to 5weeks ago.........
i came back to sydney from hk...........

after five weeks time.......im here........sitting in front of the montior..........
without a driver license..........planning to get one.........

its been 13-14 weeks late............
thats me.........dun have much motivation to act..........
i always have plan and i seldom act..........

have to move my butt away from the chair!!!!!
work it out!!!!

Red devils failed the blues!!!

2005-11-07T06:44:00.000-08:00

there is no more unbeaten team in the english premiership~~
with the looping header from darren fletcher, man utd beated chelsea in old trafford
the injured captain of man utd, roy keane complained that the young devils are not stable enough
he even criticised the new hope of scotland, darren fletcher before the big match with chelsea
i think he should not have done so as darren is his teammate and that may seriously damage the morale of the whole team
though i do think darren fletcher is not promising at all!!
anyway...........red devils have their bounce after the loses to middlesbrough and lille last week
now.......its the time to fight back and put the pressure to the blues side!!

go man utd go!!!!

Watched the exorcist............~~but it was CRAP!

2005-11-05T02:50:00.000-08:00

im actually a film lover........though i dun go to cinema frequently as it costs money~~
went watch the exorcism of emily rose yesterday.....i thought thriller wont be boring at all
but i was wrong......it was so crap!!
except those "all of a sudden"noise.........nothing much was scary in the movie..........
the main line was not the exorcism but the law..........
have never seen such a bad thriller in my life.......could see that all the shots could be made easily
i guess the producer just wanna get some benefits from the name EXORCIST.........
i mean if the movie is called the exorcism of emily rose then why emily rose dont come on the screen that often??
why the lawyer dominated the whole play?pretty disappointed...........
the director kept on using the shock shots to scare the audiences........
i dunno if thats called shock shot or what..........what i mean is..........
those shots usually come with a sudden blast......so.........how should i call them~?
anyway.......its meaningless to use those shots in a thriller.........
the more the shock shots are used........the worse the thriller is.......
as it implies that the thriller itself is not scaring enough so more shock shots are used
to compensate the shortcoming of the storyplot.........~
well thats only my opinion..........if ur a movie lover.....a big lover...........
go watch it and you will know how bad the movie is..............

at least i think it is~

you know urself very well? you know what you want?

2005-11-03T02:02:00.000-08:00

heard that from my gf........whos doing medicine in hk
she went clinic visit today........thats part of her course
then she met a patient who only has one leg.........coz he experienced explosion
not only he has lost one leg and also his skin is so grey........not pale but grey
probably its because of that explosion too...........
that patient said his only aim is to die..................
and he was forced to go into hospital............full of reluctants...
my gf said.......he is so hopeless........and she just dont understand why people would have that kind of mind..........
but i have another point of view..........i have to admit that......he is kinda weird~~
not because of his eagerness to die...........but opposingly.......that he does not know
he doesnt want to die actually
if he really want to die and thats really his only aim...........then why is he in the hospital??
ok......he said that hes forced to do so but............if he is really so desperate to die
then why could someone force him to go to hospital~?
i mean........if he doesnt care anymore.....then why would he had accepted the convince~?
i can tell that..........he actually doesnt want to die as he still has hope and care in the world
the one who forced him to go to hospital.........should be someone whos really important to him
the conclusion is........he doesnt even know he should not die and he doesnt wanna die
i think we all agree that to end ones life is a very huge decision........
but he could still misunderstood himself..........

THEN.....................

how many people can surely tell that they know so well what they want~?
to be utterly honest............you are actually misunderstanding yourself.......
you do that everyday~~!!

The Melbourne Cup......the second one

2005-11-01T02:30:00.000-08:00

the big annual event........the melbourne cup.......
i first experienced this last year.......i didnt know that melbourne cup is a horse racing event

what i could see was......people wearing gown, tuxedo, sort of grand.........
but the weird thing was that......all women took off their shoes.........their high heels......
i guess its because high heels are not comfortable to wear for the whole day.........
plus.........australian women are sort of big and heavy.........so...........

thats too much for them to wear high heels........~~
lets go back to the melbourne cup........
i thought that was some kind of memorial day........
.........in memory of some kind of nation hero or soldiers..........haha
what a stupid guess......~~finally someone told me thats actually a horse racing event
...........time flies...............it does.........its now the second year for me to stay in sydney
and its again melbourne cup........the second one.........actually i didnt know that.........
theres only one single race in the whole day!!!

and.........that horse.......well i dunno the name of the horse so i call her that horse
see i said her.....i know shes a female horse.............
that horse........wins 3 consecutive champs of melbourne cup..........
people call it hat trick like soccer.........
one more thing..........the whole melbourne is on holiday on that day.......
theres a proposal that sydney will have one day holiday too.......
but it has not yet been confirmed......
thats all i know about melbourne cup........honestly im not interested in it..........

but whenenver theres melbourne cup.......it reminds me that.......
i have been here one more year!!

Genetically.......or not~?

2005-10-29T12:57:00.000-07:00

daylight savings started......the world owes me an hour!!!!
i admit that im not a hardworking guy so 24 hours may not be that useful for me~~
but im sure can fully utilize 24 hours coz.......i always need to sleep~~~

sleeping can stop me from thinking too much at least i dont have to think what i have to do~~
another good thing is i wont be eating when im on the bed~~
so that no weight will be gained......haha.....it laeds me one big step towards losing weight~~
well i learnt that from biology when i was in high school~~
though its a common sense i guess
if output>intake... therefore weight lost
well if intake is decreased (by sleeping)........its probably more easy to lose weight~~
oh.........its always easier to say than act........thats y im like this........
when can i see myself a slimmer me~?
this will never happen i bet~~

but.......i cant be any fatter!!!
im exploding~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!

(but frds say that i look slimmer.....haha.......its because i got my hair cut maybe)
let me tell you something about me....in the past
i did a lot of exercise.......at least an hour of basketball everyday........
seriously i sweat alot everyday but i was never thin.........
both my parents are thin but im genetically fat............i guess im genetically~~
frds of my parents and relatives always say that when i was young
"he will no longer be fat when he enters primary school"
"he will be slimmer when he enters high school...coz hes gonna be taller"
"he will be thinner when he enters college, coz he will be busy working everyday"
okay..........im now at the age of stduying uni........i didnt have a chance to be slim....instead
i gained weight when i enters college......i really did gain a lot in college!!
(should i call it college?anyway thats the last two year before entering uni)
but i have never grown taller~~~i was one of the tallest students among my classmates....
but i didnt grow any at all when others are becoming taller......
and now.......people treat me as a kid because of my height........
security guards check my i.d. when i go into pubs......it sometime happens
actually..........im 21!!just that im short!!!!!
thats definitely one of the reasons............one of the reasons!!!

a lot to spend

2005-10-27T16:16:00.000-07:00

got a new monitor on wednesday......coz the old one was broken~~~
theres a CRACK in the middle.....haha~~i made that happened coz im a postmodernist
it looks cool really.....

talked with a friend today........realized that we have to spend a lot in these years
for our study.....
School fee in insearch:5800 x 4 = 23200
Rent for 3.5 years that is 182 weeks, if we pay 150 a week:182 x 150 = 27300
School fee in UTS for two years: 2 x 14000 = 28000
If spend $50 a week for food and etc (thats quite impossible): 50 x 182 = 9100

Total = $87600

wow~~thats alot~~!

dont forget thats only the least expenditure.....we still have to pay for internet...transportation...telephone...and many things else...

i guess i'd better find a job........

or go back to hong kong.............

OMG...computer lesson again

2005-10-25T21:04:00.000-07:00

that was my third day back to sydney yesterday.
honestly i have nothing memorable thats worth writing here...

and im now having a computer lesson here with a new teacher, russel
sorry to let u know that russel, im a complete idiot of computer...

but dont worry i will try my best, at least to manage a pass...ok?

declaration:physically back

2005-10-22T21:18:00.000-07:00

hi guys, sorry for confusing u guys, i was still in hk when i first published my blog...
did i say i was back?well...
i was mentally back coz i missed u guys so much

ok im now physically back that means the real me the tangible me is now in sydney...
with my soul left in hk...

so sad~~

2005-10-12T20:32:00.000-07:00

hello russel hello everyone, this is michael and im back~give me your warmest welcome!!